Can I be any different? Can I live a life of purity? Will I be able to stop drinking? Will I have another affair? If you are a part of the human race and have had an affair or struggled with another addiction you have asked these questions. It is only natural. After all most of us think we have tried and tried to defeat this crushing sin in our lives. Yet we found ourselves broken, confused and continually failing.
I am coming up on the first anniversary of confessing to my wife about the affairs and those questions still haunt me at times. They don’t haunt me because my actions have shown that I am going to do it again. They haunt me because I want to remain faithful, I want to pure. I want my wife and I to be together till we die. So with out a doubt the enemy attacks. He wants me to live in fear. He wants me to begin to think I am no different. But I am.
I am surrendered. I am learning to rest in my savior, Jesus Christ. I am learning to let go and trust Him, the good Father of my life. Then this verse came along today in my reading of the Psalms. It teaches us that God preserves us. As we live surrendered, turning to Him each hour, each day. He then cares for us. He then keeps us. He then protects us.
You may ask, why? God loves you and displayed it in His son on the cross. If He gave up His Son to pursue you, to redeem you and to restore you then you better know that He is also not going to let you go. Take comfort as you read this. Then stop and pray to the Lord, renewing your letting go of control and trusting Him.
He will keep you. He will protect you. He loves you!